Just a list

Makers of international delights coffee creamer…is it really necessary to use super glue to put the piece of foil over the bottle top? My OCDness won’t let me just cut a hole in it, I have to pull it off. That takes one of the rubber lid grips and all my strength and then my fingers are sore for three days. 

When did people stop having any consideration for other people’s time and energy. If you tell me you’re going to buy something, and I hold it for you, and then I try to text you (because you gave me your number and we had chatted for days) why are you going to ignore me when I text you again about it…I know it’s you. Just tell me you changed your mind or something….grrrr….

When your nurse, from a health management program, that you have agreed to be a part of, calls to talk to you….turn down your stinking TV, especially if your are deaf as a stone. I don’t like for my throat to hurt from a five minute conversation because I’ve screamed my head off at you. 

What makes some kids think they can do something to physically hurt another kid without any repercussions? I have always told mine, don’t start anything, but you better finish it if someone else does…he’s listened to me and I’m a proud mama. That may not be the “politically correct” thing now a days, but oh well, who ever said that I was politically correct??

That’s all I have for now…have anything to add? Happy Thursday :-)

Just a post

i love my life and I am so blessed. I am 41 years old today, and I don’t feel or act it. I can remember thinking back when I was younger and this age seemed so far away, but it really gets here fast!  

I feel young, but sometimes things I see and hear make me feel old. Like when I interact with ladies who are half my age and want to share my wisdom with them on life and relationships and such…I’m sure they will have to find out things on their own like I did. Still though, I have to bite my tongue a lot to keep from saying what I think.  

When I was 21, I thought I knew everything lol. If I could go back in time and tell myself one thing then that I know now is this; it doesn’t matter what anyone thinks of you, they aren’t the ones who have to live your life. I did some things then because I felt like it was what I was supposed to do, and there were a lot of things I should not have done as well, that at the time seemed like the right thing. 

So, just because it’s my birthday, and I am always wanting to tell people these things but usually refrain, I’m making a list of how to get through 20’s and 30’s…

  • Walk with God everyday. It’s hard to do sometimes, but you can’t go wrong and it will keep you from being in places you shouldn’t be sometimes and eliminate some heartache and hard situations. 
  • Don’t get married (or pregnant) young, trust me, you don’t even know who you are and what makes you happy, so how can you make someone else happy? I had my son at 27, which by most standards is considered older, and he was very much planned and wanted, but it’s the hardest thing ever. 
  • Find a man who lets you be yourself and is never abusive in any way, shape, or form, but also keeps it interesting and will tell you what they think, even if it makes you mad. Occasional fighting is ok when it’s done fairly and then you get to make up. 😊
  • Use your head, go to college, be able to support yourself so you never have to depend on anyone, then find a man who is able to do the same for himself. Money is not everything, but barely getting by in life is not fun and makes things very hard. 
  • Take care of yourself. Your health is something that you will need the rest of your life…I’m still working on this one and it is hard to do, but I see the ramifications of not taking care of yourself everyday in my job. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. (That makes me sound really old lol). 
  • Be dependable, if you say you’re going to do something, do it. Also, get rid of anyone in your life right now who doesn’t do this. 
  • Don’t depend on anyone to show you what your worth is…find that out within yourself. You build your own confidence, then surround yourself with people who help add to it, but don’t solely rely on others for it. 

Now, I feel better that I got that out there!!  I wish I had someone back then to tell me these things, I probably wouldn’t have listened, but I would have had it somewhere in my subconsciousness and maybe it would have helped….anyway, have a great day everyone. 

The Shining

Who all has seen that movie? Yes, it is a classic, in my opinion, and when I first saw it, was scared to death. Those little twin girls gave me the creeps big time!!!

With that movie in your mind now think about how things have been here at the hizzouse for a while. I’m an only child, was not with someone constantly and played by myself most of the time. Fast forward to December of 2014, my husband blows a disk out and is home, in bed, all day and night. It is now the end of February and although he’s getting out more and is up and mobile again, he’s been here most all the time. With me. Here. In this house. Together. And it’s snowed. Endlessly it seems.

It’s nothing against HIM really, it would be that way with anyone, it was that way a bit when papa was here. I was in “nurse mode” 24/7 and that’s hard for me because I really am more introverted than people realize.

Now, before you start calling some psych wards, I’m fine and no one was harmed during the writing of this blog. It’s gotten much better the last few days, but seriously, I was getting so ill and snappy and grumpy (more than usual) and I really couldn’t put my finger on the reason. Once I made myself think about what all was going on, it clicked. Cabin fever along with not getting my “me time” was wearing on me. That may sound selfish, but I really believe all people need that. Ask any new mother who will be honest with you, sometimes you just need a break from having someone being solely reliable on you.

Now, go play in this unexpected snow we are having!! πŸ˜€

Sunday Ramblings

It’s a windy cold day, and I dread going out in it, but so excited to go to church! I think Robert is going to try to go to. He had his surgery Tuesday afternoon. When I got back to recovery to see him he said his pain was a POINT 5…he’s one tough cookie. He took something that night for pain mainly so he could sleep good (didn’t work lol) and then the next day when we were leaving the hospital he took something for the ride home in case it started hurting with him sitting up for 45 minutes. (He had been lying in the backseat when he went somewhere. That is all the medicine he has taken and is doing phenomenally!! We praise God for answering prayers. He will be going back to work in six weeks.

I’m working hard on the boudoir business. I had some awesome brochures made up and I’m going to go soon to some local salons to put some out. I’ve also revamped my price list and tried to make this more affordable for every woman that wants to do it, while still helping to compensate for my time and running my family off while having sessions. (And having to clean my house before them lol).

I hope you all had a fantastic Valentine’s Day, I got to spend it with my Lovie
who felt good enough to go eat with some friends, that made my heart happy!! My son got to go to a dance Friday night…he looked so handsome!! I can’t believe how fast he’s grown and it makes me proud and sad at the same time. He’s such a good kid and I’m so blessed to be his mama, I just hope he knows he will always be my baby though!!

Have a wonderful day folks, be blessed!!

Sunday morning ramblings

I hardly ever sleep in anymore…since Colby came along, I don’t think I’ve done that but maybe five times. I used to be able to sleep past lunch any day, no more. I like it better being a morning person, that’s when I’m the most productive and can sit in peace for a little bit while having my coffee and catching up on world events (ie. Facebook lol).

A few of my good friends and I got to have a ladies dinner out last night. It was so nice and fun! Women need to have their own time once in a while and to have a break. I’m thankful for the few that came and hopefully we can make it a regular occurrence and more of my friends will be able to come next time, and their friends will come and it will just grow and grow!

We have a busy day planned…in a little while we are trading some of our stuff to get someone else’s stuff…in that deal I get a dining room table with six chairs that I have always wanted…I’m so excited! Then I’m working 10-2, I still love my job and get to do that from home in my comfy clothes. Then I get to have a massage at 3, my wonderful husband got me gift certificates for Christmas for 10 one hour sessions with the most phenomenal massage therapist I’ve ever been too, plus she’s my good friend :-). Finally, it’s Super Bowl Sunday so we will be watching the commercials lol!!

Tomorrow is the visit with the surgeon, I’m so ready to get a plan with how to fix my Lovie! He has had some improvements over the last few days. Bladder issues are slowly diminishing and returning to normal, and his pain is lessening and he’s not needing as much medicine. So that’s encouraging, but at the same time, it’s a slow process and I’m not sure just how long it would take to get him back to absolute normal without any surgical intervention. We shall see what the surgeon says and keep praying!!!

I hope all of you have an awesome day and get to do something fun! Thanks for reading ☺️.

Good morning!

I feel like talking today and since my family is asleep, I will write it all down instead, I’m sure Robert is tired of hearing me anyway since he’s home 24/7 now.

This year has started off with a bang, life happens quickly sometimes and I never would have dreamed we’d be facing major surgery for my always on-the-go, spunky, hyper, active 34 year old husband. Just goes to show you, we aren’t in control. Since we finally got his pain manageable, he is much more happy and back to himself some what. He is still mostly horizontal on the bed or couch for the majority of the time, but he’s picking and carrying on now. It has almost been like having a new baby, I don’t sleep well most of the time because I am worrying about him needing something and wanting to tend to him. He says I try too hard lol, I’m learning to just leave him alone unless he asks me for something.

I have big big plans for my photography business this year, they just kind of got put on the back burner for a bit until we get Robert back healthy and working, but I’m still so excited and ready to do it!! I have a new blog for it if you haven’t checked it out. I don’t have any photos on there yet but that will be coming soon as well as a new website. I have a couple of ladies signed up to shoot soon that are going to give me permission to use their photos. The blog for that is here. I will still be shooting any other types of pictures as well, I still love shooting anyone!

I could write tons more about the stuff that’s in the headlines and the chaos, but today I choose to be optimistic and positive. I hope you all have a blessed weekend, I’m so excited to get to go to church tomorrow!! Bye for now :-)

Wow, a new year already?

Well, here we are again at the end of another year. I remember hearing people say as you get older time really does fly. They didn’t lie, it totally is moving at warp speed for me. I always seem to reflect on the events that have taken place over the last twelve months, as I’m sure many people do, on this day. So here’s my wrap up…

Back in the spring, I was moved to a different team at work…to be honest, I cried my eyes out when I was told. I loved my team and the people I had as my members to call. It didn’t get much better for a few months after that, I was looking for somewhere within the company to transfer, everyday. We got a new supervisor and things got better. I am mostly happy now again in what I’m doing, it’s still insurance and dealing with a certain type of people, but I think that has helped me in other areas of my life.

My child…he has grown up right before our eyes this year. He is now taller than me and Robert, and will soon be taller than his daddy too. Even though there are times when I want to wring his irresponsible, nasty, gross neck, he is respectful, well mannered, loving, and so so so funny….it keeps him alive lol!!

My marriage, I love my husband so much more on this day than I did on January first. It grows everyday. He keeps me on my toes, it’s not boring. This year we have flew on a jet for the first time, went to Vegas, the beach, and Gatlinburg. We always have so much fun together and I can’t imagine my life without him!!

My mama and I went on a cruise together in September. It was cool getting to do that and her being able to experience it. I will always treasure the memories we made…and I want to go back again soon lol!! You ready Ma?? 😁

Photography, I have found my niche. I love doing boudoir. I am, and probably always will be, a women’s health nurse at heart. I love helping women see the beauty in themselves that the people who love them see. I am so excited for future endeavors that will be happening, hopefully in 2015.

Finally, myself, I have always known how I am as a person, but this year has really heightened my self awareness. I am opinionated, stubborn, authentic, I don’t do fake, fiercely patriotic, hater of racism, lover of law enforcement, amazed at the stupidity and audacity of some people, and I am really wanting to make a difference in this world…starting with myself. In 2015, my goals are simple…be nicer, you never know what someone is going through. Be an advocate more for people who need it, I have a project in mind to help elderly coming soon. Be more prayerful, this world needs that. Spend more time with loved ones, I can do better than what I have been. Stay healthy, I have a good start at it with losing 15 pounds, but I have got to work my heart more, I don’t want cardiac issues. Lastly, to embrace life and realize it is short, valuable, and hard sometimes, but it is such a blessing to be here!

Thanks to everyone who drops in and reads my snarky rants and silly stories. It’s nice to know I’m heard in just a small corner of the world 😊! Be blessed in 2015!!!